hehe-please stop existing. thanks.

poetry can also be the perfect insult.

"thank goodness someone was crazy enough to send me a daisy."

 

someone just isn't crazy enough. everyone in sitka is WAY TO SANE!!! hahahahahahahahah.....the sounds of sarcasm. but still.....a daisy would be nice....

i think thats the word for this....this listlessness. i havnt seen my mom since 10 am. thats weird. im constantly seeing her. i wonder why i even have my own room. she keeps track of me 25/7. it sucks sometimes, but on sundays where im doing nothing, its good to have her around. if only to yell at me to get started. i slept 12 hours last night and feel like i need to sleep 12 more. or go on a really long run in the rain and half kill myself so i can feel better. WHY DOES THAT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!?!??! i dunno. u tell me. i want to be like icarus. or or maybe like franie. thats probably a better goal, even though ill have to work my ass off in dance.

more than usual too. point shoes have become a coveted object and all i want to do is beat up my feet and bend them into sheaths of satin and cardboard. what is the world comeing to?

ok, that was cleched....what am i comeing to maybe?? probably coming into myself.

.  when i do, ill look like that

well hi there!! ok, that sounded kinda dumb. really and truely dumb actually, but hey, at least i tried the "ill go up and introduce myself approch. now i'll just rmable, cuz thats what im good at the bustle of this weekend makes me shiver with excitment. i hear christmas music everywhere, it jinggles in my head, from my mouth, on the printed pages of a frikken BATTLE BOOK!!!! its fate. i just luv it too. well maybe not the kind that sqeekes/shrills excuse me JINGLES out of the band room during 4/5 period.